Sams Struggle with illness

I received a strange call last evening. It was from Sam. I first met Sam in 2003 and because of what he had been going through health-wise, i was always concerned on how he was doing. We worked together for sometime and every time every one else was against him at the office, i would support him. I had come to learn him as a man who was bitter with life and therefore i kind of understood why he was not in good terms with everyone. Nobody tried to understand him. I became close to him and let him share all his frustrations and challenges with me.

 Sam was diagnosed with a brain tumor as a small boy. He was the favorite of his father then who did everything possible to ensure he accessed treatment. His father then was a rich man capable of supporting his family. Unfortunately, Sam lost his father before he could even finish Secondary school and his tribulations began. His own mother disowned him. While in college, he fell sick this time with meningitis that led him to be in a comma for one and a half months. The result was that when he came out of the comma, he was healed but his sight was impaired. 

The fact that he had impaired sight is what led to everyone making fun of him at the office. He was never able to control his anger. But i would help him cross the roads and support him in editing his work. Its while we were working with him that he developed gastric ulcers and he would vomit blood. They were so bad that he was in and out of hospital.

Sam called me last night from a hospital bed at Nyeri Provincial general hospital. This time, its stroke and he has been on this hospital bed for three weeks. He told me that during the period he has been on that bed, twelve men have died. He has used this time to think about his life and he now has chosen to give his life to Jesus. He claimed that what made him know that he is well is that he was able to recall my phone number. He asked me whether i got married and if not he wants to marry me. He thinks that i am the best woman to help him now because as he claimed i understood him more than anyone else.Sam does not know that i am not the same girl he was working with in 2003. I have changed a lot, have HIV and i wouldn't want to burden him with my issues when he already has too much to bear. That time i could bear his anger but today i have also become irritable maybe due to having HIV.

How i wish that Sam will find a woman who will love him and start a family with.